11/365.

despite the obvious death in my family. i have been feeling so great lately.

i've come back into my own. in a relationship with myself. growing stronger, more confident, driven, passionate and ready to grab my life by the tits.

i'm excited for the future. i'm excited to make my life what i've wanted it to be.

3/365-10/365. currently.

3/365

 Took an outtake from an old 365 to make up for the days lost.

my aunt died on wednesday, the next day in my 365. i didn't have any desire to do anything, then i went out of town, left my camera due to a preoccupied mind and my 365 fell short. came home last night and attempted to sleep. back on it today.

4/365

 another oldie. we've seen this one before.

5/365

 an outtake from one of my favorite self portrait therapy sessions.

6/365

 thanksgiving day. i took my dogs to the park. it was lovely out.

7/365

 another gem from thanksgiving. the fall colors are so vibrant, i mean how could you not?

8/365

 i always love finding feathers. even though i know that they're disgusting, i can't help but always pick them up and twirl them around in my hand.

9/365

 i always find smoke so beautiful.

10/365

all caught up. my mom's home looks like a swanky brothel.

2/365. iden(titties)

2/365

Look at me sticking to something. Granted it's only day two.

all of my photographs last night were so boring. so picked this one and manipulated it into how i've been felling lately.

feeling like my old self, the strong, happy and light person that i used to be. she's creeping back, creeping back fast and all of the shit that piled up on me the last few years is being left in the dark.

cliche, but i feel pretty great.

images i decided not to use -

1/365.

here we go.

17/365

 Yesterday was my sister's birthday. She works down the road from my work so we met for lunch and went to Subway. She showed me her wedding band and she is going to look married as hell. What a rock!

After work, I finished up her card. I stamped all of the letters inside. My friend Wendy made the flower on the inside. She didn't like it so I took it and thought it would fit well inside the card and it give it more character.

We went out to dinner to Olive Garden. Afterwards, my neighbor's puppy was having babies all day! So we went over to see them. While we were there she actually had another. She had her last pup at 1 AM, 13 puppies! It was crazy, she's not even a big dog.

It was so strange, seeing new born puppies. It made me feel slightly nauseous, but mostly it was quite beautiful.

So tinyyyyyyyy

16/365

This last picture pretty much sums up my life.

Yesterday after work I cleaned my room. The feeling of my room is so perfect. My lit candles overflowing with wax, the smell of vanilla, my warm lighting, all of my things surrounding me...it's such a simple, comforting feeling.

My friend Wendy came over and we chatted and then went to Cafe Brazil. Our waiter was a super sweet little gay man. We got green smoothies and I ate spinach quesadillas with rosemary potatoes.

We headed over to Target where she got some cute high waist shorts, which I must purchase next, and we browsed through the clothes and shoes. I got my sister this cute floral pencil holder for her work where she can put a picture of her and her soon-to-be husband in it.

We came back and listened to Warpaint and Rilo Kiley and made arts and crafts. I started on card that I'm going to finish before her dinner tonight.

Homemard cards are the best.

I snapped these before bed, where my pup was patiently waiting.

Until tomorrow.

15/365

Original piece by Nick Hutchings

This was filled with 20 gallons of black ink.

All of his art was covered in charcoal.

Tori stayed with me again last night because her favorite teacher has a show at my school. He’s been a huge inspiration to her. She really does have such a talent for sculpture, and when she had his class…I saw this side of her that was so passionate. I really think that she could focus on this and be extremely happy, but unfortunately, that’s not how the world works.

She was really nervous and excited to see him. It was so nice meeting him, to put a name to the face. It was a good, short time.

When we got home, she packed up her things and left shortly after as her mum’s is about an hour away from me. I cleaned my room once she left, even though it’s not quite done.

For some reason I felt quite pretty last night, hence the completely un-artistic self snaps.

I’m completely in love with my girlfriend.

I’m going to LA with just her in a month and a half.

I have a good job.

I’m doing well in school.

I’m writing for my paper next semester.

I just feel quite good about my life right now, and it’s been a while.

Until tomorrow.

11/365

Again, with the exhausted pictures.

I'm proud that I at least took some. Hopefully this weekend, I will also actually take some and produce images that I'm proud of.

These pictures were my mood.

9,10/365

I had the day off of work yesterday, so Tori picked me up Tuesday after work.

I came home and she was napping in my bed. Something so simple, is so dreamy to me. The natural light that fills the room, and the comfort of her in my sheets. I cuddled her to wake her up. I packed my things and we left. It's an hour drive, and when we got to the house we took care of the pups and worked on her book some more, we passed out around 1:30 AM.

We had to wake up at 8:30 the next morning, and I am in sleep debt, so I woke up unbelieveably tired. I had a headache from hell and my mood was a bit sour. We went to her dads and we visited for a bit. Then, we headed up to her work and we booked our trip to LA. It's insane to think that I am actually going on a trip with Tori. We have our festival tickets, our plane tickets, our hotel booked for four nights, we have absolutely everything. It doesn't seem real yet.

We went back and sat with her step mom and watched her cook and talked about all kinds of things. It's a simple, yet nice feeling. I wish that I had a mother that was normal. A mother that cooked lunch and dinner and was sweet and nuturing.

Her mom got married on the beach in Hawaii around 11 PM our time. She's a sweet lady that deserves everything that she has. I tell Tori all of the time that she is so lucky to have the family that she does.

We went back and finished her book, went to Wal Mart and made this giant cookie, which was the crust for Tori's homemade fruit pizza. She let me pick the fruits, and I decorated it so pretty. I wish I had taken a photo. She made a steak, and we ate spinach tortellini in alfredo and went to bed.

I'm not sorry for not taking pictures the last two nights. I don't get much time with Tori, and when I have her time, I cherish it.

Here's to taking photos this weekend. She is done with school today, and that makes me incredibly happy.

8/365

I'm completely exhausted. It took everything I had at the moment to make myself take pictures. Yet, once it finally comes down to it, it’s just what I need. I napped on and off after I took my last exam for college. I drank a bit of wine, and took some shots.

I don’t work tomorrow. So tomorrow’s photos might be quite simple as well, but I have all day Wednesday to take photos. I need to make sure to remember everything. I can’t wait to include Torrance in my photos with me.

Here’s to being an American and having a paid day off.

/amen.

4/365

I'm not particularly impressed with last night's photos.

I'm really exhausted to be quite honest.

This weekend should come up with some decent photos.

"3/365"

At work, you know. Working hard.

I'm a mess.

Looking like a fucking 90's kid.

A dinner my handsome man, Ruben, made for me.

Tori and I arting around for a project of hers.

My mother and grandpa.

My sister and I.

My nephew!

Sweet little man in the bath.

<3

Beetlejuice.

2much2do.

I found a sweet tie die shirt at goodwill for $1.

cute ass girlfriend.

Cafe Brazil.

Fucking melting.

Good Morning :)

Lunch for queens.

It's hard to look intimidating in a unicorn necklace.

I found a peach tree where I take Bub's to play.

Sweet little guy.

Tori sent me this adorable diptych from the other weekend. She's so adorable.

Just one more test and exam and I'm done for a month.

3/365 environment.

So, I completely left my memory card here at work yesterday, so I couldn't take my 3/365. Which, felt like a big deal because I was feeling really good about being so adamant and inspired about the whole bit. Anyway, the last picture on this instagram update is the little pallet I set up on my bed to photograph on. So, technically, this could be a bullshit 3/365, right?

No, but I will have something tomorrow.

I also had more pictures, since it's been a while, but somehow I moved them to a different folder and now I can't access them. I am not saavy one bit when it comes to this Apple shit, even though I did jailbreak my own phone.

Until tomorrow.