An update and a promise.

It's been so long since I have made an actual post.

A lot has been going on in my life, and in my head. So much, actually. I will get back on regular photos as soon as possible as well as weekly instagram updates. I now have the iphone 4 and all of the kitschy apps.

I am starting a new project with my girlfriend here soon called Hollow Closet, which you should follow for fabulous updates. I have been sewing a lot, and starting other personal projects as well as watching too much Grey's Anatomy.

I can't stop listening to The Weeknd, Beacon, and one song by Neptune called Lemonade.

Here has been life for the last few months.

I will see you soon. I promise!

life changes

I wrote a long, too personal post. I will leave this here, though -

1. push yourself to get up before the rest of the world - start with 7am, then 6am, then 5:30am. go to the nearest hill with a big coat and a scarf and watch the sun rise.

2. push yourself to fall asleep earlier - start with 11pm, then 10pm, then 9pm. wake up in the morning feeling re-energized and comfortable. 

3. erase processed food from your diet. start with no lollies, chips, biscuits, then erase pasta, rice, cereal, then bread. use the rule that if a child couldn’t identify what was in it, you don’t eat it.

4. get into the habit of cooking yourself a beautiful breakfast. fry tomatoes and mushrooms in real butter and garlic, fry an egg, slice up a fresh avocado and squirt way too much lemon on it. sit and eat it and do nothing else. 

5. stretch. start by reaching for the sky as hard as you can, then trying to touch your toes. roll your head. stretch your fingers. stretch everything.6. buy a 1L water bottle. start with pushing yourself to drink the whole thing in a day, then try drinking it twice.

7. buy a beautiful diary and a beautiful black pen. write down everything you do, including dinner dates, appointments, assignments, coffees, what you need to do that day. no detail is too small.

8. strip your bed of your sheets and empty your underwear draw into the washing machine. put a massive scoop of scented fabric softener in there and wash. make your bed in full.

9. organise your room. fold all your clothes (and bag what you don’t want), clean your mirror, your laptop, vacuum the floor. light a beautiful candle.

10. have a luxurious shower with your favourite music playing. wash your hair, scrub your body, brush your teeth. lather your whole body in moisturiser, get familiar with the part between your toes, your inner thighs, the back of your neck.

11. push yourself to go for a walk. take your headphones, go to the beach and walk. smile at strangers walking the other way and be surprised how many smile back. bring your dog and observe the dog’s behaviour. realise you can learn from your dog.

12. message old friends with personal jokes. reminisce. suggest a catch up soon, even if you don’t follow through. push yourself to follow through.

14. think long and hard about what interests you. crime? sex? boarding school? long-forgotten romance etiquette? find a book about it and read it. there is a book about literally everything. 

15. become the person you would ideally fall in love with. let cars merge into your lane when driving. pay double for parking tickets and leave a second one in the machine. stick your tongue out at babies. compliment people on their cute clothes. challenge yourself to not ridicule anyone for a whole day. then two. then a week. walk with a straight posture. look people in the eye. ask people about their story. talk to acquaintances so they become friends.

16. lie in the sunshine. daydream about the life you would lead if failure wasn’t a thing. open your eyes. take small steps to make it happen for you.

May we all make changes to our lives, to better ourselves.

recently,

just enjoying the length of my hair.

making rainbow cupcakes for a birthday

$20 worth of finds from our new favorite antique store!

new kicks i fount.

Just some pictures I found on my phone. So silly.

this town's the oldest friend of mine

Kruz

My cousin Shannon

My mom and Kruz

The kids and I

My mom and Kayman

Ladie's mannnn

My brother, me, my mom, Kruz and Kayman, my Brother's wife Nikki, my cousin Shannon, her daughter Chloe, and my sister.

Chloe, posing.

Kruz was riding the scooter.

Chloe took this of Shannon and I

My brother, his wife, and Kruz

MY NEPHEW KAYMAN IS THE CUTEST BOY ALIVE

Chloe took this as well

Shannon and Chloe

The other weekend was my nephew's Kruz first birthday!

And a few days later their new baby popped out. They need to learn how to occupy their time better.

It was a lovely weekend, seeing the family. Great weather at the park.

The main thing I want to remember is how my mom and I were taking silly pictures with the laptop effects and my mom told me to take one of my sister and she looked at the screen and almost wrecked and killed us. We didn't die, so it was way too funny.

autopilot

Valentine's Gay. We saw Warm Bodies and then snapped this in a photobooth.

Boba with my coworker.

My boysssss. Waking up to these assholes.

My friend Rita and I.

My hooooood.

Some lesbian dummies.

My cousin Clo and I. She's a divvaaa.

My sweet nephew Kayman. Pirates are in this year.

Tori and I running errands.

Hard Candy.

Saw this at Goodwill and couldn't fight the moonlight.

My desk.

I decided that I should update this blog, and perhaps get back on my shit. No more excuses.

We have moved into the new house, and are settling in nicely. My commute to and from work add an extra four hours onto the time that I can't be at home. So, I don't get to enjoy it that much.

Good news, I have found my CF card after many months of not knowing where it is. So, hopefully the lack of pictures will subside (even though it's first outing resulted in me leaving my camera in my sister's trunk, thus continuing my absence of pictures).

These are just insta's from as of late, even though I haven't been snapping much. I took Thursday and Friday off of work, just because I have so much PTO, and I could use a little break. The girl is on Spring Break, so we are going to do some fun things. So many pictures, I promise you.

Lately, I've become re-obsessed with old obsessions. Lana Del Rey's music pre lip injections, Rilo Kiley, Century Gothic, renting terrible movies at red box, looking like a teen witch, and swooning over my lady.

AND OMG, have you heard of wantworthy? I'm obsessed.

This blog post is pointless, and this is why I need my mental break.

Until next week.

*realistic goaling here. at least one post a week. amen.