11/365.

despite the obvious death in my family. i have been feeling so great lately.

i've come back into my own. in a relationship with myself. growing stronger, more confident, driven, passionate and ready to grab my life by the tits.

i'm excited for the future. i'm excited to make my life what i've wanted it to be.

3/365-10/365. currently.

3/365

 Took an outtake from an old 365 to make up for the days lost.

my aunt died on wednesday, the next day in my 365. i didn't have any desire to do anything, then i went out of town, left my camera due to a preoccupied mind and my 365 fell short. came home last night and attempted to sleep. back on it today.

4/365

 another oldie. we've seen this one before.

5/365

 an outtake from one of my favorite self portrait therapy sessions.

6/365

 thanksgiving day. i took my dogs to the park. it was lovely out.

7/365

 another gem from thanksgiving. the fall colors are so vibrant, i mean how could you not?

8/365

 i always love finding feathers. even though i know that they're disgusting, i can't help but always pick them up and twirl them around in my hand.

9/365

 i always find smoke so beautiful.

10/365

all caught up. my mom's home looks like a swanky brothel.

2/365. iden(titties)

2/365

Look at me sticking to something. Granted it's only day two.

all of my photographs last night were so boring. so picked this one and manipulated it into how i've been felling lately.

feeling like my old self, the strong, happy and light person that i used to be. she's creeping back, creeping back fast and all of the shit that piled up on me the last few years is being left in the dark.

cliche, but i feel pretty great.

images i decided not to use -

1/365.

here we go.

how soon is now?

Here are some snaps of me from this weekend that my friend took.

I got some really bad news today, and looking at this smile that was on my face just a few nights ago feels so foreign to me.

There is nothing that you can do in life but continue pushing through all the shit with the utmost morality and strength that you can muster.

self portrait therapy.

some much needed self portrait therapy.

my life is changing every day.
i am changing every day.

pass this on.

It's been ages since I've updated this blog. Which actually makes me a bit disappointed! But, hey! Who has time for negative feelings?

I would do an instagram dump, but that would be a intensely picture heavy post. So, here is a picture of Tori and I this weekend from Index Fest and a picture of how long my hair has gotten. It was the first time I straightened it in months, and I couldn't believe how long it got!

Index Fest was the tits +. The first night was a bit off kilter. It was rushed and we got there and late and left after Andrew Bird's set.

The next night, though. Oh, the next night. I lost my ID, so I had to get X's. I was getting cash out of the ATM, and Warpaint walked passed! They had all of their instruments, so I didn't want to be that bitch that stops them, and their set was starting in a few minutes. But, it was awesome nonetheless.

Their show was great, and they are all so beautiful and wonderful.

We wandered around a bit. I washed my X's and took Tori's wristband. We got some drinks and watched the show inside. The band was Dark Rooms and they were great.

Girl Talk. Fucking Girl Talk. PHENOMENAL. It was a giant dance party and took up the whole lot! Ugh. I can't describe. The big, huge, bright spotlights they had the whole time. The giant beach balls going about the crowd. Confetti blasters! Paper rolls thrown in the air. It was amazing. I will never forget. And his energy on stage... It was the best. The whole bit.

Anyway. I've been so busy at work. I only have two classes, but I wait until the last minute and then I get swamped. I've had lots of things to take care of this month and with Tori also being so busy with school, time has been flying by at a speed that is unreal. I can't believe Halloween is a week away!

I've been being more social, and that's good. I hope to keep it up. I've been sewing. I made this ugly dress the other weekend -

When my grandpa passed away this summer, I took this shirt from his closet. I wanted to be able to wear it all the time and think about him. So I made it into a little, ugly mini dress. I had this collar accessory that I never wore, so I cut it up and put it on here. I am going to work with a bit more before I start wearing it more.

Tori left this AM for Kentucky for Print. She will be back Saturday. So I am making a personal goal to take pictures every night this week...except as I'm typing this I realize that I left my camera at home in a the scurry of this morning.

But, be on the lookout! Good things to come. I can feel it. More sewing. More painting, etc.

Until then.

xx