inspiration.

Photos above taken with a Canon EOS 350D/Digital Rebel XT and disposables.

I decided to give myself a little inspiration. Of myself, to myself. I used to take pictures all of the time. My camera dangling around my neck or in my bag everywhere I go.

All of these pictures were not planned. That's the way I like it.

A lot of them are self portrait therapy. Days when I feel inspired by nothing at all, by the simplest ideas, by a surplus of emotions and passion that I have to let out. Whether those feelings be negative or positive. An outlet.

My girlfriend is another one of my muses. A lot of these pictures are from California, or adventures that we went on. I don't ever want this to stop. This energy within me that is always wanting more and absorbing everything around me and taking it in, making it my own, learning from it and growing from it, whatever it may be.

The electricity, that everything that I see is wonderful and inspires me.

So many crazy things lately that are filling my head, what more of a better reason than to start lugging my camera around more.

I got a Yashica 44 from my grandma when I went to her house recently. My grandma is the closest woman in the world to me. Little did I know she has this beauty stowed away in her closet collecting dust, in mint condition. I have been wanting a TLR for so long and was going to splurge one day and get one. She also gave me a few other goodies. I need to get film for this girl and take her out for a spin. Soon. I am overflowing with photo project ideas that I need to fucking execute.

This is what my new camera looks like.

and here are all of the goodies I got. Via instagram.

You'll be seeing new shit from me soon.

xx

An update and a promise.

It's been so long since I have made an actual post.

A lot has been going on in my life, and in my head. So much, actually. I will get back on regular photos as soon as possible as well as weekly instagram updates. I now have the iphone 4 and all of the kitschy apps.

I am starting a new project with my girlfriend here soon called Hollow Closet, which you should follow for fabulous updates. I have been sewing a lot, and starting other personal projects as well as watching too much Grey's Anatomy.

I can't stop listening to The Weeknd, Beacon, and one song by Neptune called Lemonade.

Here has been life for the last few months.

I will see you soon. I promise!

life changes

I wrote a long, too personal post. I will leave this here, though -

1. push yourself to get up before the rest of the world - start with 7am, then 6am, then 5:30am. go to the nearest hill with a big coat and a scarf and watch the sun rise.

2. push yourself to fall asleep earlier - start with 11pm, then 10pm, then 9pm. wake up in the morning feeling re-energized and comfortable. 

3. erase processed food from your diet. start with no lollies, chips, biscuits, then erase pasta, rice, cereal, then bread. use the rule that if a child couldn’t identify what was in it, you don’t eat it.

4. get into the habit of cooking yourself a beautiful breakfast. fry tomatoes and mushrooms in real butter and garlic, fry an egg, slice up a fresh avocado and squirt way too much lemon on it. sit and eat it and do nothing else. 

5. stretch. start by reaching for the sky as hard as you can, then trying to touch your toes. roll your head. stretch your fingers. stretch everything.6. buy a 1L water bottle. start with pushing yourself to drink the whole thing in a day, then try drinking it twice.

7. buy a beautiful diary and a beautiful black pen. write down everything you do, including dinner dates, appointments, assignments, coffees, what you need to do that day. no detail is too small.

8. strip your bed of your sheets and empty your underwear draw into the washing machine. put a massive scoop of scented fabric softener in there and wash. make your bed in full.

9. organise your room. fold all your clothes (and bag what you don’t want), clean your mirror, your laptop, vacuum the floor. light a beautiful candle.

10. have a luxurious shower with your favourite music playing. wash your hair, scrub your body, brush your teeth. lather your whole body in moisturiser, get familiar with the part between your toes, your inner thighs, the back of your neck.

11. push yourself to go for a walk. take your headphones, go to the beach and walk. smile at strangers walking the other way and be surprised how many smile back. bring your dog and observe the dog’s behaviour. realise you can learn from your dog.

12. message old friends with personal jokes. reminisce. suggest a catch up soon, even if you don’t follow through. push yourself to follow through.

14. think long and hard about what interests you. crime? sex? boarding school? long-forgotten romance etiquette? find a book about it and read it. there is a book about literally everything. 

15. become the person you would ideally fall in love with. let cars merge into your lane when driving. pay double for parking tickets and leave a second one in the machine. stick your tongue out at babies. compliment people on their cute clothes. challenge yourself to not ridicule anyone for a whole day. then two. then a week. walk with a straight posture. look people in the eye. ask people about their story. talk to acquaintances so they become friends.

16. lie in the sunshine. daydream about the life you would lead if failure wasn’t a thing. open your eyes. take small steps to make it happen for you.

May we all make changes to our lives, to better ourselves.