Thursday, October 25, 2012


Definitely one of my favorite outfits.

I don't even know why.

This weekend/week has been crazy.
My grandfather passed away on Friday and I got sent home early.
That night I was at home and Tori had her friends over.
Saturday we slept all day basically.
Sunday I went to my mom's apartment, where I was late, and we drove to Wichita.
We got there and went straight to the viewing.
Those things are always so odd. I didn't go to my grandmother's or my aunt's, but I didn't really have a choice. People leaning against the casket, like it was a piece of furniture, discussing their days over my grandfather's lifeless body. The world is morbid.
I touched him, and I will never forget the cold of his skin.
My brother came with his kids, and Kaymen kissed Sugar and told him, I love you, Bye Sugar, and I couldn't help but lose it for a second.

I spent the night at my grandmother's and we laid in bed talking until 2 AM. I woke up and got ready for the funeral. They wrapped it up quick, and even started burying him in front of us. Thanks.

I went back home to my grandma's and we talked for a bit. She let me take her car home, so I'm now selling my beloved Murray.

I came home from Wichita and Bubba is sick, he has a busted blood vessel in his ear. So, I need to take him to the vet. Poor guy :(

I had the next two days off for bereavement. I cleaned the whole living room on Tuesday and mine and Tori's bathroom. It took four hours. I can't wait for the house to be done.

Wednesday I watched Hick, and Tori came home and we ate Jason's deli and I went and walked my uncle's dog (above).

I came home and Tori and I ate a slice of cheescaked, napped and then went to see The Perks of Being a Wallflower. It wasn't what I expected, but it was good.

I love Ezra Miller, he needs to be my best friend.

I basically can't stop listening to the song that this entry is titled after.

The end.


  1. I'm so sorry to hear about your grandfathers passing. It's never an easy time, it just seems to all go so fast ...

    Hope you're ok