Wednesday, April 18, 2012

We are not the same, I am a martian.

Throughout my life I have faced many changes. I'm not saying I have a terrible life, whatsoever, but I have had to start my life over a few times for my age. I have been though a lot of things, and I have faced many misfortunes and I would never take back any of them. I do not dwell on things, or blame these things for who I am. I thank them, for I wouldn't be who I am today without dealing with shit that comes my way or having to adjust in some terrible situations. I love change. I embrace change, good or bad. Life is constant, constant change. The optimism I used to have is returning to my body, and it feels like I'm coming home after a long vacation. These last few years have been rough, but I have learned so much about myself, and I feel like I have gained a lot of strength and definitely see now that my life is going in a grand direction.

Currently, I am living with my mom. It was a temporary thing after living on my own since I was 17. I needed to pay some things off with the law and I opted to sleep on a couch for a while. Well, things didn't quite go the way I planned, but sometimes you have to take a step backward to take a step or two forward. It's a year later and I have decided to stay with my mom and upgrade to a larger apartment. I will finally have all of my own things, and space, as I left all of my belongings at my old house. They're just material things after all. This will be my time to start collecting the tangible necessities of life, and have my name on a lease after quite some time.

I used to be a bitch that dressed in all black all of the time, so lately I have been trying to incorporate more color into my life. I've decided to go with a lot of white detail for my room.

I've decided on this white bed frame from Ikea. I want to top it with a tacky floral sheet of some sort and a fluffy all white down comforter. OH YES.

To finish it off, I've decided on the following accents.

  • A white sheepskin rug. (Fake, obv.)
  • A mirror with a cute seat and perhaps small table underneath as a vanity.
  • Mesh net for a dreamy atmosphere including all of the dreamy lighting and hopefully a moon light.
I'm too lazy to search for all of the pictures, but needless to say, Bubba and I will have a sweet, sweet haven. Not to mention that Tori will begin to be staying with me a lot more as she is moving out of her place and far, far away from me. However, this summer she is going to try and attend summer courses at my college! It will save on costs, she can stay on me, and we are attempting to get into the same Sculpture class as her professor is full time at my school.

I'm super stoked about that as I have absolutely no creative outlet for the time being except for helping Tori with her projects, and photographing when I have some time.

Anyway, enough rambling.

1 comment:

  1. I'm so happy for you. Once again, we're in such similar places in my life. I just moved into a new place, all by myself, to disconnect from the noise of the world and isolate myself, to sort of hibernate and cocoon if you will, so that I can rest and regroup and then emerge brand new. Metaphorically, yes, like a butterfly. Haha. And your post reminded me of one of my favorite Bjork lyrics, "I feel at home whenever the unknown surrounds me".